Most days I am able to see the future with a positive set of eyes. Sure the world is going to hell in a hand-basket but I try to believe it will be ok because we humans flourish in times of absolute crisis and we come together to form a strong community to help those in trouble. Some days I can see the future and sure life is harder but it is simpler, purer, cleaner and a much smaller place. Most days I am able to be realistic if not actually optimistic.
Today I am struggling.
I’m not all ‘woe is me’ and ‘why bother’ but today the fear is getting the better of me. Today the fear is overwhelming. Mostly I can keep a lid on my fears for the future but today I struggle to contain it.
Reading through my RSS feed and reading one of the posts from Mother Earth News (great site for all things possibly connected to eco) and it had me in tears. Not for anything particularly specific in the article (it’s here if you would like to read it) but as I said, the fears got too big to handle today.
Today I need a hidey hole. Just for today I want to bury my head in the sand. Today I need to not read any further eco focused blogs or research something else worrying me. Today I need to focus on creating. On dreaming (but not why I’m dreaming it). Today I need to soak in the sunshine without worrying about UV rays and greenhouse gas emissions.
Am I alone?
Does anyone else out there find that some days they have a desperate need to switch off? To step away from the worrying about the world? Not to go back to living a life of ignorance about our planet and its health but to at least step away from the war so to speak? I guess that’s why soldiers were given leave. Time to recoup the senses.
Anyway, today is a day off from the eco worry for me. I need to focus on simpler things, like knitting my cardigan, play dough and trains (separately) with my kids. A cup of herbal tea. 🙂
Well, I’m off to boil the kettle. 🙂